Maybe I’ll start teaching #hermetics…

Instead of marketing myself as a private yoga teacher. This came up in conversation when Sam was here, the fact that I could try marketing myself to locals who can afford a minimum of $75 an hour for private instruction. I’ve got 28 years of experience in yoga. And meditation! My introduction to both occurred at once, when I enrolled in two six-week intensive, college credit classes during the summer 1998 at Rivier University in NH. I wanted to get some non studio credits out of the way so I could focus even more on painting my junior year. I took Yoga, Meditation and Mysticism and The Psychology of Communication.

During my first experiences with basic, hatha yoga, the meditation was of equal importance.

I like the fact that with my introduction to yoga, there was a simultaneous introduction to experiential learning in meditation. We used the basic method outlined in Lawrence Leshan’s How to Meditate. See? I still remember the f-ing title. I’ve been recommending it ever since is why.

The class was taught by a couple in their early 70s, thereabouts, and met twice a week for 3-hours a session. During each class we sat for meditation for 20-minutes, and also did 40-minutes of very basic, democratic asana. The rest of the time we discussed our reading and writing assignments, the history and philosophy part.

It took awhile, but I did get the RISD liberal arts department to accept BOTH of my grade A credits. I got into a phone fight with the head of the department while I was still in NH. Must’ve gotten a notice of the rejection of that course in the mail… I’d done my homework though, and had checked to see that Rivier was fully accredited before I enrolled. I’d worked hard too! Taking two classes together was so intense I couldn’t work my normal menial summer job at the same time. I wanted my As, see… As part of Yoga, Meditation and Mysticism I’d vowed to do the 20-min sit and 40-min yoga every single day the entire 6-weeks of the program, while completing all the reading and writing assignments of course. This had a profound and lasting effect.

There were some total bullshit liberal arts classes at RISD, like one where you grew a plant and kept a journal of its progress for a semester. Didn’t waste my brain cells on that one but I’d heard about it and snorted. I’d slammed the phone down on the department head, after he said I “must be crazy” if I thought he was going to accept those credits. I decided to wear him down. When I got back to school in the fall, I brought all of my heavily highlighted course books and all my papers for the class tied up in a nice, little bundle with a bow. I dumped the lot on his desk and said, “You can’t tell me this isn’t as much real work as a lot of the classes you’ve got going here.

I got my way.


How might I market myself?

If I do this, I’ll still teach whatever yoga (cardio and strength training) would be appropriate to the client, but I’ll include the meditation and advise from the beginning that meditation takes priority. Five minutes is a good place to start for beginners.

Kabbalah, Magic & the Great Work of Self Transformation

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My new read

I’m still reading Initiation into Hermetics, but I’ll be in that for 2-3 years if I stick with it. It’s more like a bookshelf of encyclopedias crammed into one tomb of practical exercises than a mere book, and it’s not all that user friendly in figuring out the practical application of all the insanely difficult, mental exercises. As in the first chapter title of Kabbalah Magic, Though Only a Few Will Rise. And this is another set of practical exercises – “A COMPLETE COURSE” – though I haven’t gotten that far into it yet.

The first ritual detailed is the LBRP, which I already know. I wouldn’t include the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentegram in any yoga teaching program! It’s far (+1,000,000) more esoteric than any asana class or (the lite description) “relaxation exercise”.


My visitor

Figures that it’s suddenly much warmer and brighter outside, the last morning my friend is in town. She’s at the airport now… We had a last afternoon of sight seeing and hanging out yesterday. I’ll post some pictures once I get clearance.

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I’m all into archangel Gabriel still.

Stopped by New Renaissance Bookstore yesterday for a second time. She picked up some things for the kids. I got two goldstones, specifically for working with the archangel Gabriel, and a pear candle (ditto). I’d been looking for another of the inexpensive, great light & long burning apple candle. All they had was pears. Then I revisited this site and noticed that his/her “angelic thoughtform” is a pear. All right then! They’re the same price as the apple shape and probably just as good.

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Recovery workout, 54min #HIIT & 37min #ashtanga #yoga

I’d thought I’d be downtown cleaning today, but it was just as well I wasn’t needed in. I had a Creative Circle notice to respond to, and I finally got around to updating the links on my interactive resume. I had to draw a portfolio icon and change my first website from my soon-to-be-obsolete iPage website to my space in Adobe Portfolio. I also reduced the buttons from five to four, and swapped out Pinterest (only for working) for Instagram (much more relevant in terms of describing me).

Also had another session on a watercolor I’m calling “Cricket in the Snow”. It’s going to stay pretty light… I will probably do one more session and then call it done.

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HIIT

  • 15/50 w/ 2min rest between sets = 54min

* Cardio: skipping

  1. Squat jumps 10lbs
  2. Dead lift, squat, alt lunges 40lbs
  3. Star jumps
  4. Lunge forward with SA press,up, 20lbs
  5. Other side
  6. Wide leg frogger , keep feet just outside mat & jump forward & back
  7. Surfer Burpees
  8. Tricep dips, with switch kick I could REALLY feel yesterday’s tricep superset here!
  9. Step up, kick backs R 30lbs
  10. Other side
  11. Squat & press, push-up, tuck jump 40lbs
  12. Kettlebell swings 35lbs

* Cardio: quadzilla / knee-in low lunge & switch lunge alt. Discovered I don’t really love quadzillas enough for six 50-sec intervals. Maybe having 3 cardios here & adding jugglers would be good.

  1. Half burpee with upright row 30lbs
  2. C-sit tuck & press, 20lbs (3lbs bet feet)
  3. Clean & press 40lbs, 4 squat pulses
  4. 4 Ski abs , 1 push-up jack
  5. 4 Wide leg mountain climbers /  Kick out & forward
  6. Elevated push-ups – lifting alternate leg up
  7. Pendulum lunge 40lbs 
  8. Other side
  9. Front & side raise 20lbs
  10. Alt pistol down, roll back, push-up, tuck jump
  11. Jack knife, pike press abs – 10lbs in hands, 3lbs bet feet
  12. Right angle shoulder tap feet on wall, butt over shoulders This is a good way to get stronger for handstand shoulder taps I think. My butt wags way side to side. I’ll have to film it for a laugh. Felt much more stable though.

Yoga

(15/30) back bending intervals

  1. Anjenayasana R
  2. Hanuman upright, R
  3. Hanuman, back leg bent (strap) R
  4. Anjenayasana L
  5. Hanuman upright, L
  6. Hanuman upright, L
  7. Standing Arch A
  8. Forward Bend
  9. Standing Arch B
  10. Forward Bend
  11. Standing Arch C
  12. Uttana
  13. Standing Arch C
  14. Seated Moving Twist (rest)
  15. Standing Arch D
  16. Uttana
  17. Standing Arch D
  18. Seated Moving Twist (rest)
  19. Urdhva D, A
  20. rest
  21. Urdhva D, B
  22. rest
  23. Urdhva D, C
  24. rest
  • Urdhva D to stand
  • Drop Backs – 3
  • Ticks Handstand, dropping to the floor in backbend – 3
  • Ashtanga finishing to sirsasanas, lying twist, very quick savasana

Talking to some of my best friends yesterday must’ve inspired me #freelance #artist & #designer

I’ve been industrious all morning in a true Virgo rising, list making fashion. I didn’t feel like getting right to drawing, after finishing with my meditation & hermetics practices. Instead I planned, and worked on self promotion.

  1. Organized a new set of images for a Craig’s List ad.
  2. Made new image of the spec work I’ve been doing for a local bike group’s “kit”.
  3. Posted on: my design blog, my online portfolio, Instagram, LinkedIn, Twitter & Pinterest. Also updated the dropbox folder I made for this collaboration.
  4. While updating portfolio I decided it’s time for a new character design sample, and I’d already been planning on drawing Charlie again soon. I’m going to combine that with my drawing a day series (more like every two weeks) AND playing around with tarot card illustrations. We’d already decided he’s going to be the King of Cups. Rocco will be part of the illustration too, because I’ve got pet portraits floating about in the back of my mind. Plus all those mythical kings have dogs, and she’s his companion animal. Set up a drawing session with him for tomorrow. I need to do quick portrait studies: front, three quarters and profile. First you create the character, and then the composition.
  5. Wrote new copy for the CL ad, this time with ranges  of piece prices and hourly rates listed. Posted the ad.
  6. Set up a recurring weekly event in iCal to run an ad every week. I don’t have to re-do every time. I can just hit repost for awhile.
  7. Updated (organized) the categories for the design blog.

And now… trying to decide if I want to work out this afternoon or if I’ll take a “real” rest day, whether I should go downtown, walk the cat, work on the latest landscape / lifestyle piece…

Considering that it comes out of #Adobe [updated]

[EDIT UPDATE] OK never mind! I finally heard back on the ticket I posted three days ago and I got my explanation & link. The information is in a place I’d looked, but it’s sort of an incomplete link that can be tricky to copy & paste directly. Anyone who’s tried this with their LinkedIn profile would know what I mean.


A portfolio is something the artist SHARES and SHOWS to ppl right? #AdobePortfolio #review

One of the most BASIC things about an online version is that it’s got to have a shareable link, so that you can embed it in your PDF resume and email responses. Duh. Take a look at the splash page & navigation of my Behance.

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Link says “MY ADOBE PORTFOLIO”. You’d think that clicking here would take you to “my” portfolio right? Wrong.

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This doesn’t look like my portfolio! This looks like another sales pitch.

You have to start scrolling past the GIANT blue header & then the links you really want appear, on the upper right & below “See what’s possible”.

You know what isn’t possible? A shareable link. Also a response from their Twitter team. The best and fastest way to get a customer service response from most corporations is to ask on Twitter. Not with Adobe! They will ignore you.

From the completely unnecessary and redundant splash, you can get to the edit Portfolio page, finally, and then click Preview, but the link is just “www.myportfolio.com/preview/projects”, meaning it only works on the device you’re viewing with because you’re logged into your account.


And why do we even need Portfolio when there’s already Behance? And no, they don’t work all that seamlessly together, as far as updating is concerned. If you’ve got an existing project in Behance and then launch your Portfolio, when you later add to that project you’ve got to update in both places. WHY? There should be settings for that shit Adobe FFS!!! Not all of us work on a project basis. A lot of us have CATEGORIES that need ongoing updating.

Writing & studying in the morning is relaxing / my latest read

On my creative slacker existence & a little on my personal artistic process

Another late start today! I did a NB¹ yesterday. Despite that I wasn’t out of bed in time to see Ch off for work. I was gathering up my stuff for coffee time (glasses, phone, laptop, snot rag) and saw him drive off in the van. I waved. Toodles! So what will the renunciate hermit occupy herself with today? I’ll sit. I’ll repeat my mantra. I’ll work on The Deck, the latest thing.

I drag my heels when it comes to the “finishing”. I don’t want to commit. It’s not as fraught with danger as it used to be, when I was in art school and would sometimes “kill” a piece. I’d be going along and the composition would be balanced and healthy, and then I’d over work, realize things had gone wrong, keep working (with increasing desperation) until it was truly dead and then continue to flog it for some time.

Now it’s different. For one I’m not doing anything for approval or validation (“winning” the group critique, the solid As I pursued so vigorously). Now that I’m older and somewhat wiser I see all of the marks as valid in a way. I’m not so much making something as I am forming a record of my observances and actions. I’m also mixing media at will. Hardly anything I do is just one media. This is very new. There are no rules! This is because nothing really matters, anyone can see…

I’m finally ok-again with really working on something. After an intense session, it’s best to put it away, and not look at it at ALL, for a week. Even just 24 hours is hugely beneficial though, if your deadline doesn’t permit such a leisurely pace.


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I did make it to Powell’s yesterday, after having stopped for a vegan high school lunch at Veggie Grill and a new hoodie at Gap. I was looking for another historical, non fiction title actually, but this is about another student of Hermes Trismegestus, named and translated (saved) by the Greeks in 2 or 3rd century BC / also known as the ancient Egyptian god Thoth.

The star of our biography: Acarat, Count Cagliostro, otherwise known as Joseph Balsamo to the French, lived 1743 – 1795. Sentenced to life in prison at the end, by the good, old Inquisition. I’m pretty sure Franz Bardon got harassed by the god police at the end as well, but I haven’t found a bio of him yet.

Whatever you call him, our Count Cagliostro lead an amazing life. He seems both highly shady, and spiritually talented, in healing and other occult arts like very accurate psychic predictions. (I’m only on page 30 but I’m taking notes. When I read to study, I require physical books, as well as a pen and highlighter, lol.)


¹ no booze

Annoyances can be like games, tests of your powers of mental avoidance

Blocking shit out is a VIRTUE in hermetics.

You want to be able to focus on shit you want to attract and foster, and extremely honed focus is a skill that requires constant practice. I never heard of anyone really working on that in Astanga. In my experience, and observance of that world when I was in it, The Cult seems to mostly produce more obsessiveness and attachment. Useful tools though, the asana, when not fixated upon.

Super late start today! Granted I was hiding in my room from like 7pm on last night, avoiding jam night, indulging in a Magicians & tequila binge until midnight. Pretty sure my next episode is #11, and I’d started on 3 or 4. (Read & enjoyed all 3 of the books and I don’t much mind the made-for-TV elements of the show.) Since I can, I slept in until 9:30, not including temporary feline interruptions.

I’m going to take the bus downtown on a field trip today! Need a new hoodie FFS. I finally retired my beloved, worn to DEATH Aeropostale. Try as I might, I could never find a satisfactorily form fitting and heavy replacement. I’m pretty sure I only paid about $30, during one post Christmas sale about 10 years ago. I’d go there every winter and order up a ton of stuff. Charlie googled up an okay looking example at Gap this morning though, so I reserved one and I’ll go see. Maybe I’ll have lunch at Veggie Grill too…

I’m planning on “plein air” as soon as it gets into at least 50-degree weather.

Seriously WTF is up with all this New England weather in Portland this year? Le sigh. Too cold. But… look what’s on its way.

I know I just got my huge, studio easel back after 20 years, but the thing is I want to do more outside drawings and water media, including watercolor, watercolor, watercolor. I now have a shit ton of paint!¹ My old easel is mostly suited for oil painting, or acrylic if you can deal that. You also can’t lug it down to the waterfront to work on a touristy kind of promotional piece. I need to be doing more architecture. I should toss in some government buildings. I want to be downtown more again, and this is the kind of work I want to produce so…

I did a little bit of that last year – link 1, link 2, link 3 –  when I was tentatively getting going on spending longer amounts of time on drawings and making more of a commitment to a level of finish above “doodle”. These were volunteer illustrations for the cool, though unorganized Sustainable Today. It could’ve gone further, but then they wanted something on the level that should be billed for at least $5,000, and they waited too long to ask. Fall and winter last year I was still working frantically toward anything that could cover my second apartment, but all those efforts were not quite right. (At least she tried.)

Maybe all I need, eventually, is studio space downtown

I’ve got my doubts about oil painting working out downstairs in the dining room. It’s not a dedicated space and there would be ventilation and clean-up issues. Working in oil is also SO MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE. I’ve decided that the universe needs to pony up significantly first. All of my spiritual practices of the past six months are pointed in this direction, like an army of missiles. That’s what it’s all in service of, so we’ll see.


Maybe I’ll exercise tonight, maybe I won’t.


¹ Since I’ve started working in traditional media again, out here in Portland, I’ve decided that Utrecht is my favorite brand. Other companies make interesting novelty colors. I like some of the metallics and “shimmers”. But overall the consistency and spread is best in Utrecht. You don’t get all this oily goop that spits out.

 

 

Adversity can be good for your #meditation and thought control practices!

It gives you extra incentive to direct your thoughts elsewhere. It was really hard to settle today but I did and the art thoughts and joy bubbled through here and there.

I missed a day of meditation yesterday for the first time in over a month. I kind of wanted to just have coffee and chill out before I left for my new part-time job, and I totally meant to sit in the afternoon, but all the drama over the easel sort of negated that. At least I didn’t flip out and have a crying fit! I took action, and also an advil for the inevitable headache, helped Ch in the War Room for a little bit and went to bed early. 

Today I will draw. I’m working on “Her” a little bit and I want to rough out the beginning of a new idea that popped up during meditation. (If thoughts insist on popping up, which they will, artistic inspiration are the ones you want.) It’ll be an interior scene with at least one person and one pet (preferably both) in it.