Sunshine / #celticcross #tarot, full of pentacles & major arcana

Looks like I’m going to get ample opportunities to work on my tanning this week.


I’ve gotten a bit bored with the cards lately… Doing daily readings  is good to start to get the meanings of some of the cards, particularly when they are prone to repeating themselves. Repetition makes perfect sense when you consider the fact that energetic trends don’t dissipate entirely & start completely anew on a 24-hour schedule. However all the optimism concerning career has yet to manifest. Bored!

Maybe I’ll change things up next time & do a different spread, like the Celtic Cross. That’s a really traditional one that uses 10 cards.


OK fuck it, I did did a Celtic Cross now out of curiosity, and it’s so good I’ve gotta take some notes. (Ya I’m just gonna zone out on cards & imagery this morning, but there are worse things to do.)

  1. Central Issue: Knight of Disks I’m not surprised this came up as the central life issue card, b/c it’s been a fairly frequent guest lately. In the first position: All knights serve a higher master in this world, independent of their spiritual learnings.  As such your purpose will be seen in the context of an older person’s or group’s purpose.
  2. What Crosses You: Queen of Disks This is one of my MOST frequent cards, not surprising either. [The Tarot suit of Pentacles at first glance clearly seems to be about money. Looking deeper, however, although money is part of what the Pentacles represent, in truth it is about prosperity, which goes far beyond money and one’s bank balance. The Pentacles are associated with the element of earth, and astrologically with the signs of Taurus, Virgo, and Capricorn.]In the second position: A family member or someone you can fall back on.  It can also suggest that you have very basic, healthy processes and instincts that serve you well.  You are in harmony with your surroundings and should have many a safe harbor if you need it.
  3. What Lies Below: IX The Hermit In the third position: The arrival of a guide or teacher.  Be prepared to meet yourself – for this can be one of your past lives.  In effect, you coming to guide yourself with this matter at hand.  Whatever the personification of the source of this message, this brings you closer to the belief system that is specifically correct to carry you forward on your path.  This is the dialect of the philosophical language of truth which will best suit you.
  4. What Lies Behind (past): XX Judgment In the fourth position: Your early emotional imprint on which you build even today is virtually utopian, but the realizable utopia of universal love (brought to the West by the Christ) and understanding (brought to the East by the Buddha). ??? Mmmm… I dunno about this one, but it’s in a past position anyways so…
  5. What Lies Above (possibilities):  3 of Disks  In the fifth position: You are planning now for growth in your Physical/material Plane – health, business, et al.  Perhaps taking a much more personal interest in your business or personal affairs – how to imporve the quality/quantity. Yup
  6. What Lies Before (future): 8 of Disks In the sixth position: With your involvement with your projects and your success, you must work even harder at how you interface with your loved ones and coworkers.  For as much as they share your dreams and back you – they cannot know all that you know and feel all that you feel.
  7. Yourself: XVI Temperance In the eighth position: You are having to temper your actions, saying and doing less (or more as the case may demand if you have been too passive).  Reconciliation may be underway.  Redistribution of material resources with high emotional content.
  8. Your Environment: 6 of Wands In the ninth position: Perhaps your heart has plans of which you are not yet aware.  It may wish for closer ties, much more interaction, with many more people than your extended self now embraces. Yes, yes!!! More interactions!!! Buddies!!!
  9. Hopes & Fears: 9 of Disks In the ninth position: You are energized by your fortunate circumstances and wish only to share you experiences and your pleasure with others. I AM an over sharer. I remember the days, though, when I was first blogging & filming yoga & people seemed to think it was gauche. Look at them now! 
  10. Outcome: X The Wheel of Fortune In the tenth position: One overhears as the gods speak to the gods.  There is an ineffable presence. WTF is that interpretation? I think it should be more clear & favorable.The Wheel of Fortune lets you see that emotionally – your strongest feelings are where you will find your talents.  Spiritually – to seek your fortune is to grow.  Mentally you must “risk” misfortune to grow and physically you are rewarded as your talents manifest themselves.  Look for new opportunities – change is exactly what you need.  Examine new ideas carefully before you discard them.  Exercise your strength and prepare to adapt to new and different circumstances.  Treat everything as an opportunity.  Do it with an optimistic mind, fearless heart and sense of service to the planet and this good karma brings success and rewards to all levels of life.  Innovative ideas will result from your past experiences – decisions will be made, luck prevails and destiny will work itself out positively, for you are growing toward wholeness and harmony.  First you get an idea, then you get fired up about doing it – you choose a suitable means to achieve it, you are required to go through the “blood, sweat and tears” of the process and finally – you see the results.  Maintain a steady pace – things are not always as they “seem” on the surface.  Keep planting the seeds you wish to reap – they will develop in time.  As your inner, mental images exteriorize – new situations and experiences must fit your existing “belief” structure.  New ideas cause change and you can change or alter your experiences by changing and altering your beliefs.  To prevent a “limiting” belief from creating reality – you must first become aware of it, so that you can change it according to the reality you want.  To change a physical effect – you must change your original belief and as your beliefs change so will your experiences.



Happy International Yoga Day!

Charlie & I are going to go down to Pioneer Square later & take the free Bollywood dance class. That oughta be funny.

Went on a road trip yesterday, which is on Flickr is here.

I’ve been busy celebrating lately, also falling off the vegan bandwagon. I ate fish two days in a row. This has to do with hanging out with omnivores & going to non veg friendly restaurants, meaning if I insisted on eating even just vegetarian I’d feel both deprived & under fed. I guess it’s ok. I had an excellent piece of halibut yesterday, along with the rest of the great meal & a coconut, lime bread pudding & rum sauce.

Got a looooot of exercise. First I did an excellent workout & then that hike… Now we know that Linda needs to be fed first if we’re doing a 4-mile hike. I’d had a Lara bar (small thing of peanuts, dates & sea salt & that’s it) plus 4 slices of melon. We stopped just a bit short of the last lookout cause I was getting dizzy and hangry. I’d been meandering slowly all the way in, looking around, but I practically ran all the way back, huffing and puffing like a solider on charge. All better once parked in front of the restaurant though, Roseanna’s Cafe. After that was a walk on the beach & the drive home.



King of Wands, Queen of Disks, Page of Disks #tarot

Oh for God’s sake with these first two! They’re not bad cards to get constantly but Jesus, lol. I wonder what’d happen with a different deck, but the 3 that Charlie ordered haven’t shipped for some reason. One’s a pre-order but B&N hasn’t sent the other two. The King of Wands is probably telling me I need to get back to work. I haven’t worked on the current illustration project in awhile. I haven’t heard back on the last two composition updates but I have four more waiting. Maybe I don’t want it to be over!

I’m not going to work today either. Yesterday was about getting out of the house. We came back after lunch but then went out again later, to the Laurelwood brew pub in Milwaukie. Now I’m all hungover but C’s not, oddly. Maybe I should’ve joined him for his walk up to the park at the top of Council Crest, but I have to get my lazy, bleary ass to do a workout… Bleah. Urrrgh. I can’t stall until the middle of the day either because we’re joining the kids this afternoon for a Father’s Day hangout down at the blues festival thing, on the waterfront.

Maybe I should give the daily readings a rest & start doing them just once a week? Unless there’s a really bad one that is.

It’s actually gonna be nice enough out to tan again but I won’t get the chance – wah, wah!


Card 1, within: King of Wands

Last seen on June 19th, 14th, 3rd, & on May 25th in the 1st position. Master of soul, energy.

In the first position: Yours is a call to leadership of the highest order, to lead others on the path to greater understanding of the spirit.

Questions to Answer:

  1. How are you expressing your sense of self?
  2. How are you using your decision – making and leadership abilities?
  3. Who is controlling the situation?
  4. Who do you admire for their sense of self?

Master of your own energy, soul, spirituality, creativity, life force, passions through knowledge and experience. Justice, righteousness, illumination of what was previously dark, misdeeds and bad intentions.

The King of Wands is an indication that you are someone who is very visionary and goal-oriented. You achieve a lot because you are very clear about your future direction and how you will get there. You do not waste your time on activities or relationships that you believe will lead no-where. You never just go with the flow, instead you prefer to embark on a strong and direct course of action.

The King of Wands reminds you to lead your life with intent, vision and a long-term view. Know that even though you are experiencing challenges now this is just a part of your journey to something much more positive. Eventually, you will see this time as just a little blip on the radar and it will have simply served to make you stronger. Stay focused on your long-term goals.

The King of Wands in the present position indicates that any project you are working on is an inspired choice and will take you far.

Card 2, without: Queen of Disks

Last seen June 15th in the 3rd position, June 12, 10 & 8, in the 2nd position, June 7 in the 1st position, May 27th in the 2nd position & many other times.

The Queen of Disks creates a safe physical environment.Keywords: Safety, stability, prosperity, Physical and financial security. When you have been nurtured into a place of happiness or are bettering a person, yourself or a situation, expect the Queen of Pentacles to appear in your Tarot reading.

General: This card can indicate that you will be spending time, money, and energy on your home, getting it to be more comfortable.

Work: You are likely to make great headway now. A woman with dark hair and/or eyes may play a significant role in your working life; if so, know that she is an ally for you.

In the present position, the Queen of Pentacles signals that you are either enjoying a time now of being taken care of or are happily taking care of someone.

Finances: The Queen of Pentacles is an excellent omen when it comes to money. Your prosperity level is very likely to be increasing. Don’t hesitate to spend some of your new-found wealth. Saving is important, but enjoying your life when you have the means to do so is also important. Share what you have when you can.

Card 3, advice: Page of Disks

Last seen June 9th & May 31st in the 2nd, “environment”position. Pentacles are the Tarot deck’s symbol of wealth, but they also represent the material plane of existence – all possessions and the practical approach to having things around.

Introduction: The Page of Pentacles can be a card about boredom, in some ways. This Page’s strength is unconditional love both for self and others, and non judgment. Assuming strength in your self, others and in situations. Project into the world calm thoughts that support rather than hinder what you want from life.

The Page of Pentacles, like the pages of all the suits, is a card of new beginnings, of inspiration and the initial stages of a creative project or venture. Pentacles correspond to the alchemical element of earth, and in this sense the coin that the Page holds may symbolize the beginnings of sensual awareness not only in terms of money and its value but also in terms of a growing awareness of the importance of health and other material needs.

Questions to Answers:

  1. What new information are you gathering?
  2. What new possibilities do you contain within yourself?
  3. Who is bringing you financial information?
  4. Are you listening to the earth?

Page of Pentacles suggests mastery of creative power – the ability to enjoy studying.  The persevering scholar, the pioneer spirit and the passion to create and give birth to new form or restructure old form.  The ability to approach any activity with the quality of fascination and involvement – caring less for the rewards or social position than for the work itself.  Experience your own inner child’s playfulness.  Do what you loved to do as a child and you will find your genius, your passion and your success.  Take the pressure off yourself – enjoy your journey.  Do your best and enjoy the “process”.  You will be receiving good news – a message that will change many things.  There will be a meeting with someone who is kind, generous and sympathetic to your point of view who will create changes for the better through their caring ways.

Predictable, physically resourceful, physical means of discovery, good instincts.  Communication with earth spirits.  Ruled by the drive for transformation.  Physically playful and active.  Playground of possibility.  Physical innocence, purity.  Appropriate naivete in others.  Transformation side of things physical – new physical opportunities, situations, events and guides.  Drive and the forces of change are instinctive, passive as is the growth of a child is automatic.  Wonder at physical things – eagerness, enthusiasm, amusement, physical renewal…physical news.

Wow! I’ve only worked out 3x this week

And instead of doing it today, I rushed out of the house to go through the long weekend process of getting to the NW via public transport. I think I left at like 9:30.  It’s now 10:42 & I’m not there yet, but I’m practically giddy to be out, making all this effort just to go sit in a cafe & read a novel while killing time. I’m meeting Charlie for lunch later at my favorite Indian place in pdx. It’s not Saravana Bhavan but it’s good.

Doubtful I’ll exercise in the early evening. Seems somehow intrusive in the shared space of the downstairs. Maybe. Who cares, right?

Page of Wands, King of Cups, Queen of Disks

I’m getting going slowly today, but that’s ok. There’s absolutely no need to rush anything, in my new slacker-artist existence in PDX.

Morning Musings

Had a nice Tuesday. Worked on my illustrations, composition revisions and catalog updating, & got in a good workout. Then Charlie and I went shopping at the two Goodwills downtown, first the more ghetto one on Burnside & then the fancy one on 10th Ave. I felt so Portland authentic! Had never once shopped in a thrift store. It’s just too hard to find my size, generally, but if one is not in a hurry… He got me a few shirts at the first stop, and then a very cute jean jacket at the second. I hadn’t realized how old, yellowed and worn my current one is looking, compared to a fresh, dark wash. My old one is from the Gap and I got it late 20s / early 30s.

After that we went grocery shopping and I made us a vegan dinner that we enjoyed with some wine. We took Henry and Rocco for one of our meandering, cat-style strolls. Sir Henry controls the pace & progression, pretty much.

I really can’t complain that jam night is here again, which it’s going to be a majority of Wednesdays now. There will be beer anyway! lol. OK, I better get cracking at “stuff”. I will try not to put in my contacts and then head straight to Twitter.

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Card 1, within: Page of Wands

Last seen, June 11 in the 3rd position. Initiators of spirit.

Page cards in the present position represent you starting life over again. The Page of Wands shows you with a new idea of taking control over your own destiny. It is a powerful card in the present position, a clean slate with momentum in your favor.

General: In general, this card indicates that things that you started some time ago are starting to come to fruition. It can also show a need for new things – new adventures, new approaches, and new ideas. The Page brings us positive energy. We must supply the follow-through, however.

Spirituality: This can be a very creative time for you, and a good time for you to actually become childlike… dream, play, be inventive. You never know what your creations during this time might come to, and at any rate you will enjoy yourself and this play will deepen and enrich your life.

Keywords: Divine inspiration, faith, enthusiasm, great heart. Messenger and message of God. Miracles. Strength of hearth and faith is sometimes far more powerful than strength or age of body. Follow your heart courageously, fearlessly.

  1. What new territories or ideas are you checking out? Content creator for social media
  2. Who is calling you?
  3. Who is enthusiastic about your endeavors and looks up to you as a mature adult?
  4. What actions are you risking to take?
  5. What are you all fired up about?

Card 2, without: King of Cups

Keywords: Master of your subconscious, knowing the self enough to not be a slave to it but to learn & derive power from it. Connecting to the source. Intoxication. Good sleep.

Introduction: The King of Cups speaks of balanced male and feminine energy; he holds all the positive qualities of both masculine and feminine. Often he indicates a literal man in your life. Usually, when he represents a ‘live person’, he’s referring to a very kind and loving man, who will generally have hair on the lighter end of the spectrum. Know that you are supported by the universe, in ways seen and unseen, when he appears.

General: In general the King of Cups represents kindness and compassion. There is an element of pure and true love in your life no matter what your situation when he appears. Nurture yourself, and allow others to nurture you, when you receive this card in a reading.

Questions to Answer:

  1. What feelings are you keeping under firm control?
  2. In what ways are you a care – giver or counselor?
  3. Who cares for you deeply?
  4. How have you established yourself creatively?
  5. In the second position:

    You have someone – a family member, a partner, an angel – that you can fall back on.  But more than financial or physical help, this is the strong shoulder to cry on, the caring ear that can listen to your problems.  This man can help heal your wounds.

Card 3, advice: Queen of Disks

Last seen June 12, 10 & June 8, in the 2nd position, June 7 in the 1st position, May 27th in the 2nd position & many other times.

The Queen of Disks creates a safe physical environment. Keywords: Safety, stability, prosperity, Physical and financial security. When you have been nurtured into a place of happiness or are bettering a person, yourself or a situation, expect the Queen of Pentacles to appear in your Tarot reading.

General: This card can indicate that you will be spending time, money, and energy on your home, getting it to be more comfortable.

Work: You are likely to make great headway now. A woman with dark hair and/or eyes may play a significant role in your working life; if so, know that she is an ally for you.

In the present position, the Queen of Pentacles signals that you are either enjoying a time now of being taken care of or are happily taking care of someone.

Finances: The Queen of Pentacles is an excellent omen when it comes to money. Your prosperity level is very likely to be increasing. Don’t hesitate to spend some of your new-found wealth. Saving is important, but enjoying your life when you have the means to do so is also important. Share what you have when you can.

Gets back into bed with laptop

If I’d been more disciplined last night I could’ve totally gotten in a workout today, since I’m getting a ride & don’t have to do the 90-minute version of the 2.5 mile commute, but… Meh. Thinks back to the entrenched guilt of the Cult days. Back then my teacher & shala mates would know if I’d skipped. It’s still hard for me to believe that I paid $240 a month for yoga ten years ago, without blinking. What would that be now, $325 monthly? And that wasn’t even for 24/7 access year round. When you pay for ashtanga, you’re lucky to get 5-6 days a week access (depending on the moon schedule), past 10am, except when the teacher is: sick, on vacation, getting paid to be in two places at one time (doing a workshop elsewhere). Yoga Sutra was awesome back in the day, before Greg screwed over Christopher, only later to be shafted himself but there’s karma for you. There were two teachers, going from 6:30 to I think it was 11:30am, so if you had a day off work you didn’t still have to get up at 5 to get your fix in. That blissful situation didn’t last long, and these days AYNY can only exist in Brooklyn.

These days I’m so apathetic about everything that I’m on a 4x a week exercise plan. It’s just as easy to eat less on days I’ve got a retail shift. I used to be able to get up at 5am sharp to get in a yoga practice before a 7 or 8 hours of work but that was when I was doing design. I guess lazy & flabby goes along with unskilled labor for me.

I know regular yoga would still be good for me, but I could only manage it if I had a group, and I don’t have the budget for that.

Thinks about meditation.

Doesn’t meditate.

At least this year I will finish a themed group of 16 illustrations. There’s something.

Having a #retail #associate gig is like having a bad, #bootycall boyfriend

  1. It never takes your needs into consideration and will not commit to a schedule, regularly summoning & discarding at will.
  2. It expects “passion” but offers as little as possible at all times, in all aspects including salary, non existent perks like transportation reimbursement and creature comforts so that you don’t have to, you know, work in pain. Sure you’re on your feet all day, but don’t even try to stand on the cushy mat behind the counter unless you’re waiting on a customer. Makes you less available servile, supposedly.

I walked in the door at 12:25pm, having spent half the day on an errand that should’ve / could’ve been worked into a downtown visit with Charlie and taking up all of one half-hour. The end of my commute was a half hour walk up the sidewalk-less, shoulder-less Dosch Road, in the rain, because this isn’t a time I could either take the 51 or ask C to pick me up. But the worst part is that my $109 art supply run should’ve been covered about 60% by today’s earnings. What if I had needed that money for groceries? The corporation doesn’t care.

I minded the walk less than usual because I’d already planned on not exercising today and I have no paint so I’m going to do artwork. I got mud on the hems of my navy work pants and sweated through my work shirt, but I’ll hang them up to dry now. Good as new!