Annoyances can be like games, tests of your powers of mental avoidance

Blocking shit out is a VIRTUE in hermetics.

You want to be able to focus on shit you want to attract and foster, and extremely honed focus is a skill that requires constant practice. I never heard of anyone really working on that in Astanga. In my experience, and observance of that world when I was in it, The Cult seems to mostly produce more obsessiveness and attachment. Useful tools though, the asana, when not fixated upon.

Super late start today! Granted I was hiding in my room from like 7pm on last night, avoiding jam night, indulging in a Magicians & tequila binge until midnight. Pretty sure my next episode is #11, and I’d started on 3 or 4. (Read & enjoyed all 3 of the books and I don’t much mind the made-for-TV elements of the show.) Since I can, I slept in until 9:30, not including temporary feline interruptions.

I’m going to take the bus downtown on a field trip today! Need a new hoodie FFS. I finally retired my beloved, worn to DEATH Aeropostale. Try as I might, I could never find a satisfactorily form fitting and heavy replacement. I’m pretty sure I only paid about $30, during one post Christmas sale about 10 years ago. I’d go there every winter and order up a ton of stuff. Charlie googled up an okay looking example at Gap this morning though, so I reserved one and I’ll go see. Maybe I’ll have lunch at Veggie Grill too…

I’m planning on “plein air” as soon as it gets into at least 50-degree weather.

Seriously WTF is up with all this New England weather in Portland this year? Le sigh. Too cold. But… look what’s on its way.

I know I just got my huge, studio easel back after 20 years, but the thing is I want to do more outside drawings and water media, including watercolor, watercolor, watercolor. I now have a shit ton of paint!¹ My old easel is mostly suited for oil painting, or acrylic if you can deal that. You also can’t lug it down to the waterfront to work on a touristy kind of promotional piece. I need to be doing more architecture. I should toss in some government buildings. I want to be downtown more again, and this is the kind of work I want to produce so…

I did a little bit of that last year – link 1, link 2, link 3 –  when I was tentatively getting going on spending longer amounts of time on drawings and making more of a commitment to a level of finish above “doodle”. These were volunteer illustrations for the cool, though unorganized Sustainable Today. It could’ve gone further, but then they wanted something on the level that should be billed for at least $5,000, and they waited too long to ask. Fall and winter last year I was still working frantically toward anything that could cover my second apartment, but all those efforts were not quite right. (At least she tried.)

Maybe all I need, eventually, is studio space downtown

I’ve got my doubts about oil painting working out downstairs in the dining room. It’s not a dedicated space and there would be ventilation and clean-up issues. Working in oil is also SO MUCH MORE EXPENSIVE. I’ve decided that the universe needs to pony up significantly first. All of my spiritual practices of the past six months are pointed in this direction, like an army of missiles. That’s what it’s all in service of, so we’ll see.


Maybe I’ll exercise tonight, maybe I won’t.


¹ Since I’ve started working in traditional media again, out here in Portland, I’ve decided that Utrecht is my favorite brand. Other companies make interesting novelty colors. I like some of the metallics and “shimmers”. But overall the consistency and spread is best in Utrecht. You don’t get all this oily goop that spits out.

 

 

Enjoying Friday morning in downtown #pdx

First stop was Blick, to stock up on art supplies. Last time I was there I discovered some new brands & tools. Eclipse & circle templates! Iridescent water colors! So exciting. Then I went through some paint & brush inventory at home & did some price comparisons on the website, making a rough shopping list via my online cart. I’m such a Virgo rising / Pisces sun & moon sometimes! Organized creativity…

I just spent the weeks salary, lol, but with membership discounts & a coupon I went from like $144 to $110. I will use it! I used those ellipses the day after I got them.

The crazy thing is I’m using watercolor paper I bought at RISD for this project. It’s archival D’Arches that’s why. 

I still have a few tubes of watercolor paint that are student grade. If I make anymore illustration money I’ll throw them out, cause it’d be nice if my work lasted decades without fading off. Water colors are delicate.

After that I walked south again for a vegan breakfast at Petunia’s, biscuits & gravy again. I’d debated Prasad or Little Big Burger, but I had the time… More than I thought!

My retail job actually cost me money today! Never mind the art supplies, I wouldn’t have spent $5 on the bus or $14 on breakfast if I hadn’t been scheduled 1-6, but they called & said “Neva mind” . Such is the life of an associate. I don’t have to feel bad about it if I ever need to call in sick anyway right?

I was gonna head to Powell’s after this, to look at tarot cards from a research perspective. Charlie ordered 2 or 3 (can’t remember) more decks with a B&N gift card. He’s getting a bit interested too, but I want to look at the deck he might pick as his own, just for the artwork…

Oh what the hell, I can go and take a look at the “dark” one, Deviant Moon. I’ve been downloading images… Might start with XV The Devil. I haven’t yet seen the level of violence I have in mind for that card. I’m picturing something very Caravaggio.

It could be a 3-year project, 78 themed images. Am I assuming I’ll survive (with ever increasing vision help) that long?