Speaking of magic and reversal spells…

As previously mentioned here and here, I buried a makeshift cauldron containing a reversal spell on the last day of 2016, in a sort of “hidden” area near the northwest corner of the yard. It’s got a chain-link fence around it because it was the old puppy-run, back when Charlie bred Golden Retrievers. It’s all overgrown now… We selected our Christmas tree from there & I liked the hidden, remote feeling I got.

The old plum tree is to the right of the entrance to this little corner space. It was already leaning way over, parallel to the ground, as per this very quick color sketch.

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The snowpocalypse last month did the tree in, and not only did it crash down, but it squashed another tree too, effectively barricading off the bubbling, magic danger zone. How funny is that?

The highlighted area shows where the path used to lead to the gate opening.


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Nature say, “Keep Out!”

You can’t quite tell (from my iPhone 6 photo) just how congested the area is right in front of the gate opening, so I went around the now-more-horizontal plum tree to the right.


Going underneath the plum tree really isn’t an option either. Sure if you were desperate you could get through, but it’d be a messy struggle. The two, toppled trees are enough of a deterrent to let the magic simmer undisturbed for awhile. Eventually Charlie will chop up the trees for firewood.


Got up at 4:15 as planned. Was no problem cause Ch and I had an early dinner at my favorite, nearby McMenamins along with a couple muscle relaxers (beers) and I went to bed a bit after 8pm.

I did my sit and banishing ritual and then I had some extra time before the hour of Jupiter commenced, either 6:22 or 6:26am according to online sources. I had a couple candles and incense going. Turned out all electric light & did some light yoga & concentration before I started exactly at 6:22. I was finished about 6:40!

I felt a bit silly but it’s all worth a try. Ritual! Tried to get back to sleep later but I think I’ll need to wait until the caffeine wears off a bit. Later in the afternoon I’ll go into my studio, pick something to work on and call my servitor.

First part of this, about enjoying the idea of something, is applicable for a desired attitude toward this whole endeavor.

Rewatched #Melancholia last night

I love a good end of the world drama, and I liked this much more the second time. First time I watched it was also online, with my friends Jody and Daniel in NYC, when they lived just a block north of me in the East Village. If you’re expecting Hollywood fare this will be a hard movie to get into! We were all sort of dismissive then because we were expecting a more superficial type of entertainment.

Melancholia is slow moving, but very deep and well acted, and it has a powerful ending. That’s when the deeply depressed individual – who had it all and threw it all away – shows how strong she truly is.

The therapist told him that depressive people tend to act more calmly than others under heavy pressure, because they already expect bad things to happen.

There are two halves to the movie.

By splitting the film up into two parts in this way, “Melancholia” explores the themes of loss, destruction, impermanence, and loneliness, first on an intimate scale (“Justine”) and then on a global scale (“Claire”).

I’m familiar with being the only person in a room willing and able to see the ridiculousness and (sometimes) base evil of a situation and actually SAY something. I can relate to Claire. “You don’t need to mourn this world.” Actually the only area where I disagree is I don’t believe that humans are alone in the universe. I’m pretty sure there’s other fuck-ups out there.

Planning my day. Gonna do a little reading. I need to read the entire servitor book & then start conceptualizing my 24/7 helper. What I need is something to inspire me to create art without deadlines or expectations and THEN direct clients to me.

My seat is strong in my daily, morning meditation. So THIS is what all the yoga was for! – a thought that sprang up today, before I returned my attention to the edges of my nostrils.

Julia posted a shorter workout! Of course if it’s rep based and 40min for her it’ll be an hour for me, at least, but that’s ok. A little exercise and a little yoga would be fine for today.

30min #HIIT and about 75min #ashtanga #yoga

Soundtrack was Dandy Warhols, Distortland, and Marilyn Manson, The Pale Emperor. Most current release for each artist. So hooray, I’ll take a shower today!

This song came on during yoga. It’s my new theme song. Lookout fuckers. I’m uncrossing and then I’m fucking reversing. I’m not going to make the mistake of getting specific (this time.)

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Standing Dumbbell Workout

  • (15/50) with jump rope before every move, time = 32:30 This is the routine I was going to do yesterday, but without the jump rope. Melissa’s short sets are pretty simple. I really need to do more of this 1/3rd HIIT and 2/3rds yoga format…
  1. Dumbbell Rotational Lunge (right) 20lb
  2. Dumbbell Rotational Lunge (left)
  3. Curtsy Lunge Kick (right) 35lbs
  4. Curtsy Lunge Kick (left)
  5. Tricep Press Back 20lb
  6. Bent Over Row 40
  7. Swings 35lbs
  8. Warrior Deadlift (right) 30lbs
  9. Warrior Deadlift (left)
  10. Squat / Side Kick Press (right) 30
  11. Bike Abs Chair Twist
  12. Squat / Side Kick Press (left) 30
  13. Overhead Tricep 20
  14. Single Leg Tap (right) 15, tapping weight to standing leg toes.
  15. Single Leg Tap (left)


Surprisingly I really haven’t lost much flexibility at all. The only thing is that, of course, the Kapo B gave me The Reaction from Miami. I should just call it “Miami”. I did drop backs for the first time in forever. I’ve learned not to look at the outside of my exercise or yoga. It’s too depressing. But they don’t feel that much worse than they were at the height of my yoga obsession.

  1. Suryas & fundamentals, 1st 3 poses of primary 30min
  2. Back bending intervals (15/30), 21min
    1. Anjenayasana R
    2. Hanuman upright, R
    3. Anjenayasana L
    4. Hanuman upright, L
    5. Standing Arch A
    6. Forward Bend
    7. Standing Arch B
    8. Forward Bend
    9. Standing Arch C
    10. Uttana
    11. Standing Arch C
    12. Seated Moving Twist (rest)
    13. Standing Arch D
    14. Uttana
    15. Standing Arch D
    16. Seated Moving Twist (rest)
    17. Ustrasana A
    18. Ustrasana B
    19. rest
    20. Kapo hang & don’t come up
    21. Kapo B
    22. rest
    23. Urdhva D, A
    24. rest
    25. Urdhva D, B
    26. rest
    27. Urdhva D, C
    28. rest
  • Urdhva D to stand

  • Drop Backs

  • Finishing